My life with borderline

First of all, I will tell you about my experience and let this be clear ok? 😊

Second, at no time do I want to romanticize a disorder that for a long time hindered my relationships with family, friends and whoever was close to me. I understand that everyone has different degrees of the disorder, but I certainly can't compare anyone with disorders and tell if someone has more or less than someone else because that extremely dangerous.

Third point, whenever you can, seek help from a specialized therapist who can assist you in an appropriate treatment and who knows if necessary, take medications prescribed by a doctor ok?

Now, for those who do not know what borderline is, it is a disorder where the person has problems in social relationships, constant mood changes (unlike the bipolar who has changes between mania and depression for a longer period of time ... days, weeks , months) and is often considered to be an unstable person. It is about people who are fickle in life especially when making important decisions like career, college, studies and marriage. Unfortunately, it is almost always associated with self-harm and a serious problem with their survival instinct.

In my case it is like that, to add to the borderline, I also have obsessive thoughts and attention deficit. So it is a little challenging to have a conversation, because if I didn't get distracted because of something you said and that made "travel in time", it was because you might have said something that I felt deeply "assaulted" even if I didn't contiously wanted to. So people constantly have to "step on eggs" to talk to me, especially those that are the closest  (my romantic relationships in this case). Also, if I don't leave a relationship in a traumatic way for me, I know that I will also be (and I was!) traumatizing to many people. There is one more thin...my impulsiveness, today I may decide that my career is to be a baker and to be VERY excited about it and tomorrow or at the end of the day I am sad because I have to be an accountant for the rest of my life because I believe that earning a lot of money was more important than earning less and being happy. Are you getting the message?

We borderlines see the world very much like all or nothing. We take everything "to the heart". So the world is so confused and complicated that many of us withdraw and stay in our own world, without much external contact because we don't want to complicate things even more. Or avoid social contact in order not to be hurt or hurt someone. Sometimes we withdraw in a subtle way, some in a very dramatic or traumatizing way.

Another problem that I face is that of being constantly hit by a situation that sometimes was not even real (and the distortion of reality is extremely common in those who have borderline). For example, if my boyfriend didn't ask me to go dinner with him, it was because he didn't love me. And guys, without judgments, I know that this is not real and today I am a thousand times better because of the therapy, the support of those who love me and the medication (which despite the many side effects helped me to persevere and change my perspective) .

Well, if you know someone who acts in "strange" and "fickle" ways or even hurting themselves or depreciating themselves in an unhealthy or irrational way, never doubt that that person may be experiencing some kind of difficulty or disorder and who often needs support and not judgment (let alone miss God! because I heard that and a lot already).

If you want to talk to me to find out more about my experience, I'm here to talk. I know specialists in borderline therapy and I am delighted to help refer these excellent professionals.

Thanks!